Monday, August 29, 2011

Expecting and hopeful

I am expecting again! I'm due March 10th. I went to the midwife this last Tuesday and heard the heartbeat! It was a huge relief. After the miscarriage, it's been hard to trust my body again. Especially because I haven't felt sick very much, and until this last week had only gained about two pounds. Jake gave me a blessing early on, and in it was told that I could have peace that this baby would be born, and be healthy. I tried to hold fast to that- but I have to admit that I didn't really allow myself to "feel" pregnant until I heard that heart beat. I feel much better now that I've heard it, and now that I'm past my 12 week mark. Now I just have to face all my fears that come from Naomi's ultra sounds. I really am much more at peace though. And the nice thing is that because I kinda put "being pregnant" out of mind, and with the move and all, those first 12 weeks flew by- and now I doesn't even seem that long until I get to find out if we're having a boy or a girl.

If I had to guess, I'd guess a boy- just because I haven't felt as sick with this one as I did with Naomi. Jake really thinks and wants a girl. In fact, he's even saying that if its a boy he may just want to try again later for a girl. Which has me HOPING its a girl- because this pregnancy stuff has become more difficult and stressful each time- and I want to be done. I am more sick at night, like with Naomi though. We'll just wait and see I guess.